This semester has just been insane! It started off busy and just got crazier and crazier as time went on. I thought I could not possibly fit one more thing onto my plate….and then more stuff would just dump into my lap from the
heavens above boss man and somehow, someway, I managed to keep it together and make it work.
In the process, though, I feel like I’ve been missing out….on life, in general.
Well, those have totally fallen to the wayside. Who has time for goals when you’re struggling just to get by, ya know?
And I’ve had a little storm cloud brewing inside of me for some time now. I feel resentful when I see friends’ facebook status updates about lounging by the pool or going out with friends. Same thing when I’m driving to work and I see people walking with friends, wrapped up in conversation, and all the undergrads on campus who migrate to the bars for happy hour by 3 or 4. I don’t like it. I don’t want to be stormy inside. I want to feel sunshine! I want to feel free!
It’s hard to be sunny and free when you have no life, though. Mine has very much revolved around school for far too long. I’m totally okay with busting out an 80-90 hour work-week once in awhile, but I can’t do it on a consistent basis (I know some people can) – it’s just not healthy for me…physically OR mentally!!!
So I’ve decided I need to get back to the basics in life.
For me, one of those things includes making goals for myself. So, here are my Summer Goals
1. Get back into a regular workout routine. This should be easy enough because I’m supposed to be training for that triathlon, remember!? But I skipped almost all of my workouts last week, and this week I’ve been forced indoors due to allergies. Once school is out, I’ll seriously focus more on training. I already feel like I’m in good shape for the sprint tri, but I need to do more bricks & if I’m forced inside due to allergies, I need to be hitting up the gym, rather than just doing workout videos that serve no purpose in terms of training.
2. Make new friends. This one is HARD! Since I moved here solely for school, the only people I know are school people! Thank God for them because without them I’d have no one, but I really think its best for me to have non-school friends, too – just to be able to further separate myself mentally from school & work. But how does a grown up meet people outside of work & school? It never seemed like a problem when I was younger, but the older I get the harder it seems to be to meet people! I think I’m going to call my old friend “Jamie” up to start going to yoga together, and maybe I’ll join a running meet-up group. Does anyone have other suggestions???
3. Focus more on me. You’ve seen this goal before! But I need to bring it back to the table. How easy it is to just neglect ourselves when things get crazy! I’m in serious need of a mani/pedi and a massage. Plus, in general, I want to have more time to pursue my interests (like scrapbooking, playing guitar, cooking, gardening, etc.)
4. Find a better balance in life. I guess this pretty much encompasses all of my other goals. The point is NOT to just ignore school/work. It has it’s place. The point is to make everything more balanced. I want me time. I want husband time. I want friend time. Workout time. Rocky time. Relaxation time. Etc. etc. etc. I need to do some soul-searching to really figure out what an appropriate balance will be for me. Something that I can maintain and be happy with long-term. This has always been a struggle for me & it’s time I do something about it!
In an effort to start off on the right foot, I decided to make some cookies last night on a whim. No special occasion – I just felt like baking (I’ve always preferred baking over cooking, but I rarely do it because I have to cook in order to eat, whereas baking is kind of a luxury in terms of time. And time is a precious commodity!)
So, I whipped out the ingredients & got going on my famous snickerdoodles! I tweaked my normal recipe just a bit, adding a little orange juice (squeezed straight from an orange – not the bottled kind!) and a dash of pumpkin pie spice – just to give a hint of something that makes people go, “hmmmm, what is that?!”
I love my giant mixing bowl!
The outcome….was PHENOMENAL (if I do say so, myself!) I must do these again soon! I wish I had made a larger batch!!!
And now, I’m back off to work and school. 7 more days (but who’s counting?)
Have you ever had a hard time making friends? Where do you meet people?